naomiknight17 replied to your post: Got lunch w/ my brother, his wife, and…

*Sends hugs and love* And it’s up to you how you live your life and what interests you indulge in, fuck what anyone else says

I know..
it just wears me down, you know?
I generally try to keep a positive attitude, but the constant negativity thrown my way lately is just getting too much..

And I really don’t want to do it all by myself anymore. I’m tired of it..
I’m tired to working my ass off for weeks, and getting home to nothing.. It just makes me feel like I’m wasting my time.

I’m so bad at reaching out when I have problems, I constantly internalize everything.
I want to have someone who I can talk to face to face about anything and everything when I get home..
that’s not too much to ask, surely?

Got lunch w/ my brother, his wife, and my mother on sunday..

fuck I’m stressing out like crazy about it..
I seriously hope my mother doesn’t pull the whole “you need to start liking normal things” bullshit on me again.
I swear, if she starts. I don’t give a damn if we have our food or not, I’m walking out right away and going home.

I don’t need to listen to that shit.
Yeah, I get it mother, you think I’m a failure because my younger brother has gotten married and has a child, and I can’t even get a girlfriend….
You’ve never liked my life choices anyway, and berating me about not having a girlfriend isn’t making it any better.. In fact, it freaking makes it worse…

Like fuck.. goddamnit, it pisses me off..

I hate being single.. I’ve been this way for almost my whole life.. I’m tired of being lonely..
why must my social anxiety be so bad I can’t find anyone, unless they’re on the other side of the world……

I’m all depressed now.. I think i’m going to go and try rest, and not keep myself up crying thinking about all this….