Got lunch w/ my brother, his wife, and my mother on sunday..

fuck I’m stressing out like crazy about it..
I seriously hope my mother doesn’t pull the whole “you need to start liking normal things” bullshit on me again.
I swear, if she starts. I don’t give a damn if we have our food or not, I’m walking out right away and going home.

I don’t need to listen to that shit.
Yeah, I get it mother, you think I’m a failure because my younger brother has gotten married and has a child, and I can’t even get a girlfriend….
You’ve never liked my life choices anyway, and berating me about not having a girlfriend isn’t making it any better.. In fact, it freaking makes it worse…

Like fuck.. goddamnit, it pisses me off..

I hate being single.. I’ve been this way for almost my whole life.. I’m tired of being lonely..
why must my social anxiety be so bad I can’t find anyone, unless they’re on the other side of the world……

I’m all depressed now.. I think i’m going to go and try rest, and not keep myself up crying thinking about all this….

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